Happy Valentine’s Day ——to me! (gasp!)

I might not be sporting a new sparkling diamond today, or have an expensive dinner date, stacks of boxes of chocolates, bags of Victoria’s Secrets or  dozens of lovely roses on my desk today at work, but I have something I did  not have a year ago, I love myself and have a great pride in who I am and what I have accomplished!

Let me explain.

A friend of mine was celebrating her birthday last March 2013 and a photographer at the party captured me in a few pictures much to my dismay and absolute disdain.  When I saw the pictures, I was horrified and I begged my friend to not post them on her Facebook page! She looked wonderful in her pictures but I just wanted to bury the ones I was in.   It was her celebration and I had a marvelous time but—-when I saw those pictures after the party, I was extremely embarrassed and felt humiliated at how badly I looked in those photos. Asking her to not post those pictures, I now see I was trying my best to pretend they didn’t exist and I was trying hard to hide and become totally invisible!   look back and see where that came from, I didn’t accept  nor love  myself.  I was working on the outside but I still wasn’t even being nice to myself on the inside.

At the time the pictures were taken, March 2013,  I had been doing Weight Watchers just a couple of months and I had lost 13.6 lbs. I remember thinking how totally horrible I looked and I didn’t want anyone to see me looking so bad.  I told myself all kinds of negative things even though I knew I was working on things.  The pictures  did remind me how far I still had to go!  I didn’t let those pictures discourage me; I kept pushing, pushing harder and harder to reach my goal! I am glad I looked beyond those pictures and kept moving forward!

My friend sent those pictures to me today, yes on Valentine’s Day, with a note telling me how awesome I look, how wonderful I have been doing (on Weight Watchers) and how proud she is of me and my accomplishments. I sent her a note back and thanked her for sending them to me! I feel these photos are excellent reminders of where I was a year ago!  These photos are almost “before” pictures since I had lost the first 13.6 lbs of my journey and had managed to avoid the camera at most any cost!

I am happy and proud to share them with you today, because I now weigh 94 lbs less and feel physically so much better!  I love the person in those pictures more today than I did this time last year. Her determination and focus has gotten me to where I am today and will continue to help move me on to my goal which is about 27 lbs away now! While I do not “love” the camera yet, I hope I become less stressed about being photographed in the near future!  I am trying to be “kinder” to myself on the inside as well.

Don’t hide from your past; it was your path to the present and doorway to the future!

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Jury Duty and Weight Watchers

On Christmas Eve, I received a Jury summons in the mail.  Merry Christmas to me!  I reported this past Monday, February 3rd and I went prepared.

I knew that we would get a lunch break and that not knowing the area of what was available, I would be wise to pack my lunch, snacks and bottled water in advance.  My tote was heavy but that ok, I would rather choose what I wanted to eat from what I knew would be better choices than a cafeteria or a snack machine.  Carrying the extra weight helped remind me of the extra weight I used to carry around all the time!

I chose to pack:

  • Apple
  • Cherries
  • Grapes
  • Mini Cucumber
  • Sandwich (Reduced Calorie Wheat Bread (2 slices),  Lean Deli Ham (3 oz. ) and Mustard)
  • Special K Cracker Chips (Sea Salt) weighed out in a Ziploc bag
  • Special K Moments Dreamy Coconut Snack Bar
  • Pringles 100 Calorie Original Chips
  • Bottle of Water (16.9 oz)

I pre-tracked everything I took with me that day, knowing whatever I brought home, I could subtract from my daily point allowance.

What I brought home:

  • Apple
  • Mini Cucumber
  • ½ of the Special K Cracker Chips (Sea Salt) weighed out in a Ziploc bag
  • Special K Moments Dreamy Coconut Snack Bar
  • Pringles 100 Calorie Original Chips

Planning is the key when you’re going to be out of your normal routine/area.

Strategies for planning ahead:

  • Pack your own lunch

If you have to eat out:

  • look at menus online (if they have them)
  • plan your order in advance (if possible)
  • use the nutritional information found on their website to figure out the points

At the Restaurant:

  • Ask questions about the food preparation, sauce ingredients, etc.
  • Ask for your portion to be split and take half home
  • If the restaurant will not split it for you; as for a take home container and do it yourself!
  • Request sauces/salad dressings on the side if you are not clear as to what is in them and to minimize their use.
  • Drink water with your meals

I felt I did a lot of sitting and waiting for something to happen, which never happened.  You could move around freely, go to the ladies room, as needed which was nice.  I didn’t get home until about 7:30 pm that night so pre-planning helped me to have a successful day on Weight Watchers and allowed me to not feel deprived other than deprived of my job that day!  The plan works if you work it!

As soon as I could get my clothes changed, I took Sunny, my Labrador, for a nice long walk; it felt so good to move after sitting all day!  She loved getting out and about and I just liked the movement. A year ago I would have just come home to “sit” more or go to bed early out of exhaustion.  A year later I want to get out and move! Good for me!

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