I am half way through my first week on the new program and I am still feeling very positive about the changes to the program. Things are starting to settle in as I have only had to make minor changes to my normal eating.
Today I fixed my oatmeal breakfast for the first time since the plan changed. I forgot to add my frozen fruit that I have in the freezer but enjoyed my oatmeal with almonds and cinnamon. I keep forgetting to add my frozen fruit! I did remember yesterday and added dark sweet cherries to my oatmeal and it was delicious! Breakfast isn’t going to be a big deal to modify IF I can stop forgetting to add my frozen fruit to it!
My 5th day in and I had my first eating out challenge. I reviewed the menu the day before online which helped a great deal. I was invited to lunch at a local Greek Restaurant and chose chicken kabob with roasted vegetables. It was great and from what I can figure very Smart Points friendly too! Large chunks of roasted chicken with large chunks of green pepper, onions and tomatoes. Very tasty! I only ate half and took the rest home to have for another meal.
One of the “targeted” items on the SmartPoints plan is sugar and I battled with some hard candies earlier this week. I suspect those candies will most likely affect my weigh in results this first week of SmartPoints. To make it even more complicated my sugar cravings were tag teamed with the female monthly hormone cycle. We are so quick to dismiss the affect hormones have on our eating and cravings but they are directly related. One friend online said there is no way that hormones would affect her weight loss because she no longer has a monthly cycle. In humorous style, I said “Just because that ship has sailed it doesn’t mean the wind can’t flutter your sails!” Why there might not be typical physical signs of the cycle, the hormones do continue to cycle every month. Even post menopausal women continue to feel “bloated” “puffy” etc. long after that time has passed each month but don’t often connect that to their hormone cycle. I can safely say the monthly hormone cycle was most likely the basis of me keeping my hand in the candy jar for a couple of days this week. I am trying to avoid them the rest of this week! This time of year we are bombarded with sugared everything being pushed at us! But, I know how to say “no, thank you” and move on.
BEYOND THE SCALE- FITPOINTS
This past summer the Weight Watchers meetings were focused on being happy and how to be happy. Research has shown that happy people make better food choices which is one of the concepts behind the new name “Beyond the Scale.” There is more involved to losing weight than the number on the scale. Which brings me to FitPoints. We are no longer encouraged to exchange our FitPoints for food. Many have been very disappointed with this new approach as they have been used to exercising more to eat more. Weight Watchers is taking the stance that we should be exercising to feel better not just to eat more. I couldn’t agree more since it appears those with activity monitors can rack up FitPoints for almost nothing! I still enter my activity manually as I do not use an activity monitor and my points are about the same as they were before the program switch which doesn’t seem fair but since I am not using them, it really doesn’t matter in the big picture as I am one who has always held the belief that I am exercising to be healthy so I am not sure if it is even necessary for me to count them anymore. I hope Weight Watchers will come up with a good compromise such as for every ten FitPoints you earn, you will have one additional SmartPoints to use in your daily points total. Or something like that. I think it isn’t an even exchange with the increased points being earned by those with fitness monitors and maybe that kind of formula could work. Just my two cents.
Something you know something but yet you refuse to acknowledge it which I choose to call it conditional amnesia better known as denial. I KNOW Weight Watchers works BUT I keep second guessing myself and keep wondering how I am supposed to be able to lose with having more daily points. I KNOW to trust the program and not to panic but I keep having waves of second guessing myself and Weight Watchers on their approach. I still hear my two-year old toddler self trying to playing with my head.
My weekly Weight Watchers weigh in is on Saturday morning and I am hoping for a “down” no matter how small. My results will be in my summary/wrap up post I will post on Sunday or Monday.
After having lost over 125 lbs., (on Weight Watchers) I am still struggling to see the “new” me at times. I think one of the reasons why I struggle with this is that my body is still “shaped” the same as before just now smaller. I still see my abdomen as a large round protrusion. I might be sitting here typing in a pair of size 6 Levi’s but I still see the size 20W abdomen/belly. I still see the roll on my upper stomach. I still see what I used to see.
The mind/body disconnection one encounters in weight loss is both frustrating and discouraging! I have read that this is a major factor in people regaining their weight as they never really see themselves as thinner and so they feel it is hopeless and stop trying to eat and live a healthy lifestyle. I can believe that. “Feeling fat” and “seeing fat” are head trips that our mind sends us on. Why do I say this? Because when I was morbidly obese, I didn’t see myself in that way at all. I saw a woman with sexy curves, not fat rolls. IF our mind can help us not face the reality when we were obese, it stands to reason that our mind will not allow us to see the new thinner, healthier self either!
There is a strange battle going on inside my head. One second I can see myself in a mirror and think, “wow I look really thin” and the next minute look down and think “my stomach is huge!” Such contrasting thoughts. The goal is to see “reality” on a consistent basis and put those “fat” thoughts as rare occurrences. I do think I have turned a corner in my journey to greater health as I feel I am seeing more “thin” than “fat” now. There is a thin line that is walked minute by minute but overall the tide has turned to thinner healthier self-images.
I am not a patient person by nature and this has tested my patience beyond words! I look at my reflection in the mirror and start thinking “I bet surgery would take care of most of the ‘negative’ I am seeing. ” I think that for a second and come back to reality and think, give it time! Give time and your body an opportunity to “heal” and “repair” itself. While I know my skin will never be that perfect smooth taut skin seen in magazines and on 20 somethings at a Florida beach, it will get better. Time does heal all wounds. Time heals wounds not permanent scars. My mind is wounded, my body is scarred.
I admire the women and men who can look at their stretch marks, sagging arms, wrinkling skin and are proud of where they are now versus where they used to be. I am having to learn that these things are badges of honor not time’s curses. This is the “ugly” side of weight loss that most do not want to talk about or even acknowledge that it exists. The body’s aftermath of weight loss. I should say “extreme” weight loss as I am referring not to losing 5-20 extra pounds, but over one hundred pounds of extra weight. I would love to see health insurance companies view this as a covered expense for those who have lost extreme amounts of weight. Perhaps if burn centers would reach out to weight loss companies/centers for skin donors for surgeries this would help too. Two lives could be changed forever through skin donations.
It is Friday the 13th. A lucky Friday the 13th! I am alive and feeling energetic and healthy! Two years ago, I had just begun my quest for greater health and not even started exercising or walking and was down about 15 pounds. A year ago, I was exercising/walking on a daily basis and getting closer to my goal weight. with 98 pounds gone! And three years in, I am down about 27 pounds more than I was a year ago. Yes the weight loss side is basically closing out; but the mental changes and physical changes are still happening! I am pushing to be able to soon say that I have lost half my body weight. THAT is a HUGE accomplishment!
I am trying to be more patient with my body and accept that some things are the way they are and learn how to be happy with the things I cannot change. Isn’t that what life is about; acceptance and happiness?
Dear Blog Readers,
I thought it was time I gave you a personal progress update.
When I set out in January 2013 to become healthier by joining Weight Watchers Online, I knew what to do but didn’t know how long it would take me to reach those goals. Last week, I reached a major milestone in my weight loss journey. I have now lost over 100 lbs!!! Yay me! For the first time since I began, I can now look at the end goal any not only the five pounds at a time mini-goals. I know as of last Wednesday, I have 20 lbs to reach my goal BUT my focus is still on the next five pounds mini-goal to reach 105 lbs lost. My focus since last Wednesday has been to lose the next 3.8 lbs. That will probably take 2-3 weeks depending on my body’s reaction to several things over the next few weeks.
I will be starting to attend Weight Watcher’s meetings locally this week. That will be different for me and I am sure their scale will give me a different reading than my scale at home. So I am sure I will be “up” when I officially weigh in, but I know I am still headed in the right direction! Thank you for reading and sending your comments and words of encouragement!
Here is an updated progress photo. I am getting closer to my end goal!
Many people look at me and do not believe I have twenty more pounds more to lose, but if they could see my “doughy” middle they would agree, that from the “middle” alone, easy 20 lbs! I am trying to pamper my skin. I am hoping that time will heal some of the “self inflected” scars of being overweight will start to heal. I know I am not in my 20’s and I am seeing things I never saw happen to my body back then. If I would pass along any words of advice it would be to those in their 20’s and 30’s get rid of the weight now because your body loses its ability to “bounce back” that it might now have! Be smart get fit now! Don’t put it off! Bat wings, doughy middles and prune like skin are no fun to deal with!! It isn’t pretty to look at either but I would rather be a healthy weight and have those lumps, bumps, sags and wrinkles than to be overweight and unhealthy!