July 2, 2016
The upside is that I have maintained my original weight loss goal for two years as of July 5th! My weight has never in my life been this stable. Yay me! HUGE accomplishment for sure! But I still have some mental struggles which is normal I understand. Life is definitely a process/journey and trying to keep a healthy perspective is a challenge! It is so easy to get caught up in the moment that we forget the truly important big picture sometimes. Today as been one of those times for me. Here is why—
This past month’s net gain/loss was +.4 so that is true maintenance! But I hate it! Why do I hate it? I still feel I should be losing every single week which is not the “goal” now but I fight this feeling all the time. I wrote out some of my thoughts today. I think we all struggle with your own thinking a lot on our journey. I have been reading about the thoughts others have resolved about their weight loss and I still have some things I need to resolve.
It is a mental struggle now and I have been trying to become comfortable with the number I see on the scale. This week’s number puts me back where I was when I came back from a ten-day cruise and I had gained six pounds. I am not comfortable with the number I see at all. In the big picture the number today is 75 pounds less than I was 3 years ago, 2.4 pounds less than 2 years ago but 9.6 pounds more than I was a year ago! OUCH!
I had worked extra hard (and lost a bit more on top of my original goal) to hit a specific number before I went to NYC and now I feel I need to hit that number again! I felt so good mentally when I weighed less but my clothes all still fit and I physically feel good BUT I still want to see that number and maintain that number. Obviously, I wasn’t able to maintain that number a year ago without the extra hard work. So why am I expecting the scale to “magically” show me that number this year? I have to put in the work or the number will not show. Am I willing to put in the hard work again knowing I will have to keep working that hard to maintain it?
What happens if I reach that number again?
I will feel a great sense of accomplishment
I will start wondering if I can maintain it
I will feel a great deal of pressure to maintain it
What happens if I do not reach that number again?
Nothing in reality will happen to me
BUT –I will feel I somehow failed
It could play with my head and undermine my mindset
Why do I want to reach that number again?
Keep my ten pound plus cushion
Be able to say I still weigh the same
Feel more positive about the “number”
Knowing I was able to return to that number and feel proud did it
The bottom line this statement below is the truth and how I SHOULD feel:
Your weight loss goal is a behavior, not a number.
I feel I am trying to hang tight to a number and this is causing me issues with my thinking inside. I need to spend more time resolving this inside my head and finding peace one way or the other.
As 2015 comes to a close, I want to send out a huge “Thank You” to all of you who have been reading and following my blog this last year and the Happiest of New Years to each and every one of you!
Over the last couple of weeks I have been reflecting on what opportunities I have been able to experience and what I have accomplished in 2015. This year gave me some once in a lifetime experiences and some memories that I dearly cherish.
2015: A Year in Review
In mid April, I submitted my Weight Loss Story to People Magazine and to Joy Bauer’s Joy Fit Club.
I heard from a producer (Kate) of the Today’s Show’s Joy Fit Club and interviewed me on the phone and I sent in photographs for them to consider in their meeting. They would be making a decision the end of April.
In April, I began learning how to cross-stitch and began working on a couple of quilts.
I took a cruise in late April to Cozumel and Grand Cayman and found out I was invited to be on the Today Show/Joy Fit Club in May when I was in Grand Cayman and I was told I had to wear my 1984 Halloween costume!
In May I was blessed to reach a weight I wanted to reach when I was 23 years old but only came within 8 pounds of reaching it. Which happened to be half my body weight when I began trying to become healthier.
In May, I appeared on local NBC affiliate News Channel 8 pre and post Today Show appearance. The Pre Today Show interview with Melanie Michael, she did an awesome job! I only had 45 minutes notice that she was coming and I happened to have a bunch of bananas under my desk that day! lol
On the evening I arrived in NYC, I met up with Weight Watchers from CT while I was in NYC whom I had met in a Facebook Weight Watchers Group. This was so much fun to walk about NYC and talk face to face as we enjoyed the sights of the city. (Amy, Donna and Jo-Anne) We walked through Central Park, Times Square and Rockefeller Plaza.
On May 17th, I was blessed to appear on NBC’s Today Show with Kathie Lee Gifford, Hoda Kotb and Joy Bauer wearing my Halloween costume from 1984! Talk about fun! The cast, crew and producers were awesome, especially Kate!
The Post Today Show (right after the show literally) interview was done from the Orange room with WFLA’s Rod Carter. He happened to be in town covering the Tampa Bay Lightning who were playing in the playoffs with the New York Rangers. So cool! GO BOLTS!!!
Met and talked with Dean Cain (Lois and Clark: The New Adventures of Superman) in the Orange Room at the Today Show. BONUS: He knows about the USF Bulls!
I saw Ricky Schroder that day too but I was in hair and makeup and didn’t get an opportunity to meet him but my mom did.
After the Today Show, I was hungry and my mom and I had New York Pizza at the Concourse!
Tried to get in to see Jimmy Fallon’s Tonight Show taping but that day the show was being done for an all military audience. Saw many of them around the Concourse in their uniforms and in the NBC Experience Store.
Walked to Macy’s on 34th Street after having pizza. So much fun seeing “the” Macy’s where the Thanksgiving Day Parade happens every year! I grew up watching the parade so this was a “must do” for me while in NYC! Also taking the wooden escalator was fun too! That is a HUGE store!
The next day we walked to Weight Watchers International and toured the headquarters in New York City. It was foggy that morning but could see the top of the Empire State Building from the rooftop of Weight Watchers! Thanks Jenny! Also noticed that Mattel has offices in the same building.
In early July, I celebrated one year at my goal weight and Lifetime.
In Mid July, I recorded a series of video interviews about my weight loss journey to be used to train professional counselors when working with clients for weight loss and to be used in counseling classes at Penn State.
In July, I underwent a surgical biopsy and was diagnosed with breast cancer and declared breast cancer free. I became a Breast Cancer Survivor.
My Weight Loss Story appeared in the Tampa Tribune on Saturday, September 5th. Thanks Mia!
In September/October, I redesigned and relaunched my Weights and Balances website with a new design and more information with my own dedicated email.
In early October I designed business cards to hand out at meetings, etc.
Spoke to both Graduate and Undergraduate Exercise Science students about my weight loss journey with a focus on Behavioral Theories in October and November 2015.
Throughout the year I wa invited to speak at Weight Watcher Meetings in Tampa Bay about my weight loss journey.
Participated in the FIT Program for the 5th time and gained some more strength in my arms and upper body. Had the most awesome trainers too! Thanks Rachel and Michael (more about them later in a separate blog entry on the FIT Program)
My mom and I took a 9-night cruise in November to Aruba, Bonaire and Grand Turk. We had a wonderful time and I completed 4 quilt blocks (cross stitch) on the cruise for a project which I just completed today!)
While I was on the November cruise I spoke with a lady who said she had heard about me and watched me on the Today Show, that was a very fun experience.
n December, I began the new Weight Watchers SmartPoints Program in December. It hasn’t been a seamless transition but I am working on it! The phone application and computer etools still do not contain all my information.
My blog entries about my first week’s experience with the new Weight Watchers Beyond the Scale Program had over one-thousand views!
This year I kept my blog going and began to organize my articles and blog entries for a book.
2016: What’s Next?
There were many exciting adventures in 2015 and I am not sure how 2016 can top many of those adventures but it will be interesting to see. In 2016, I want to keep encouraging and helping others in their journeys to greater health. Another big accomplishment I am looking forward to is to celebrate 2 years at or below my Weight Watchers Goal weight! One challenge I will be facing next year is the loss of my current supervisor at work. She has accepted a position as Dean and will be moving away by summer. More change. While I am thrilled for her new position, I am sad for me as she has been wonderful to work with in the last two years. Like the saying says “the only thing in life that is constant is change.” 2016 will bring me a new supervisor and more changes on the work front. I will be praying that I will be able to meet the new challenges ahead of me.
2015 was an amazing year and 2016 will be spectacular!